Dont know y there is a big difference,really dont know y,maybe its fate,maybe its my destiny.I am just different,am already stepping into a state of letting go,well not quite there but to be detach to the world where normal people live within.The only person i know is in a state like this is Ivan.The ability of not being contrained or linked to others is amazing,now i am turning like that.Where life becomes a path,so quiet,so much to learn but not on info or knowledge but instead is wisdom and the ability that u handle toughness and challenges.Its hard,but now i finally finding it quite fun.Well i no longer am the person that i was now.I used to be tangled in emotions trapped,stride for useless things.Now learning to let go,adapt,become water,facing problems with no feelings but to get it done.I know that i can no longer be affect by emotions cos that i just cant,with in this state.Performance of great work comes first,even any emotions comes in,still there is only one way to deal with it,analysis it,learn the good,discard the bad.I feel like i had grown 15 years in a few months time.I no longer am young,i feel like i am about 40.
Becos of detachin from all human-being,it give me space to learning to think to reflect.Now i can see that majority of people live in a life which is constrained by desire,and emotion.Only thinkin about life itself and lookin at in a whole can really see the true about life itself.
Was just reflecting back,and realise its already been 11years seen 97.my life had already been maybe the quarter mark.Weird,it really is time to start running in my path of life,there is not really time to waste.Well,life its really odd but now i am a person that i never even think i would be,calm,quite,there is still a tone of worry inside but now am feelin that i really am detached.Relax in the mind is what i am feelin i think.I feel like i am floating in the middle of the sea on my own.
Lookin forward to the next quarter of life,which is filled with the outcome of hard work.
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