強

強人是你 能飛天遁地
其實你了不起
假使你永不說不能做到
強人是你 能頂天立地
如敗倒 再掙起 永沒言死
才是活著的真理

Never give up,no compromise.To believe,well there is no other path except to success!!

滿江紅

怒髮衝冠，憑闌處、瀟瀟雨歇。抬望眼、仰天長嘯，壯懷激烈。三十功名塵與土，八千里路雲和月。莫等閒、白了少年頭，空悲切！

   Again    莫等閒、白了少年頭，空悲切！

  Do not waste the time to sit around when u are young,when u are old then u will live in regret!

  Use the time wisely and efficiently!!!

Lets regain focus

        Life becomes so hard to focus,it seems like there is a glaze over my path,a layer block my goal.I try to wipe off the glaze to regain focus,to capture my boiling blood,my crazy determination,to kick start my mind again.But i find that i cant have holidays,it stops me from being who i really am.

      ARRRRRRR i would have to control myself,to believe,and to do it and make it real.

       Focus must be retain,there are no other option as i had already stepped into the sea of stocks,the only thing i can do is to focus,work hard and success.

        COOOOMMMMEEEEE OONNNNNN got to work at full capacity now there are no other fuckin option,i mean there is one and that is failure.But that aint an option for me!!!

      Fuckin it,its holiday but i am still wakin up at 5.50am to work.No compromise.Lets push it to the limit and push it further day by day!!! 

Better world

     HAHAHAHAH i guess haha i am all changed now,fuckin scary inside,even i am scared of myself!! Need to control myself more,to create a shield that contain the hatred and anger inside me,i am scared of it,is becos it had been mixed with self ego,sick mind that want to release them out.

     But i cant,even i am so fucked inside,i still have to contain it.I need to be a role model.Even the world is so fucked,just like the invention of Lady's night,the worst thing ever created that brought down the moral of our planet,by using free entrance for girls that lure more guys that just want to fuck to go to their club which increase profit,i mean what kind of business man are those.If i know who they are i will murder them,to clean up a bit of shit off earth surface.And those girls go there,they obviously know why guys are there,i mean what the fuck are they hangin around there chatting to girls which they dont know,and those girls still go there all the time,i mean they must be desperate or just fuckin sluts.

     Well thats why i need to be a role model,to work hard to create what the world really need,hard workin people that trying to make Earth a better place instead of spreading STD everywhere.If i have power i will wipe them out.Well guess i dont have to wipe them out,diseases will do it for me.

        But i guess i cant let that hate over take my head.I will still continoue to work my ass off,to try to built a better world.

     

time no time

    No time to write blog,all time for work!!!Ridiculous,forcing myself to another high of analysis and concentration.

   Laters yo,forcing all the time to create a amazing future for myself. Loneliness is my life style!!!

i am a sponge

          I am a sponge,i look at knowledge and i absorb fast.I do the stocks and i both do the maths!!!

          Well i am fuckin insane,there is all that i can say,pushin the wake up time earlier so have more time to work.5:50am.and i am still studying and its 9.10pm,i am fuckin insane.work until i no longer can see,there is no goin back on this path.the only way.

      Now after the first transaction in my own account,i cant even look to the side,the only thing i can look at is my study and stocks.and press up lots of them.to keep my body goin so i can study more!!

      Now even time has disappeared in my brain,as i overload it so much,well or u can phrase it in another way,it is training.when ur brain get use to it,it will boost its efficency and power.

       No compromise still,will keep sayin this until i die!!

        Got to focus more,harder then continue the focus until the point of collapse.thats the only way!!

    COME ON!!!!!!Steppin into the another field of work,i have no longer exist,only knowledge and more determination and focus!!!! 

   By the way,i dont choose what to learn,cos if u choose then u always miss out the other info.I just learn them all!!FUCKIN CRAMP THEM IN!!!!And use them!!!!

Lets eat shit

     Fuckin hell,dont know what the fuck is wrong with me today,ate too much??or am just coming to a edge of a mental big mental break down just like the US recession.

     Feels like an explosion had happened inside me and i am just holding it in.The crazy hormone make me go weird that was needin to scream or i dunno talk to people maybe but there is no one to talk to.Literally no one is there to talk,so well hasnt open my mouth in 5 hours now,was gonna go mental but controlled myself to work,then was gonna go crazy again so try to take away the craziness by doin 500 press up to tired myself out,then even that still didnt work so did more work and more excise still going crazy,but i mean i cant count on talkin to people cos never count on others but only urself,fuckin guesss got to swallow the weird lion inside me the nuclear explosion of screamingness of me.Take the pain and force the fuck to myself to focus,guess its the only way.

     Life is shit,so swallow it!!!!  

The sound of silence

               Amazing,tai chi,is like a flow of water changing you slowly.The effect on it person is so smooth and calm.Well before i used to hold tight on one thing,now slowly gradually changing.

              Well maybe that am already detached from the normal world,just purely work,then stocks and press up.Perfection in both the body and the mind.

             Dont think that i can ever live the life of majority people live anymore.Just find it too noisy,too demanding.Cos if u are totally on ur own,then everything u do is within control,if u dont like it u change it,so u are always happy every single second.Anything to do which involve people then there is an uncertainty cos they maybe make u happy but they might not.and the things is if there is time that they will make u happy then there is time that they fuck u up.So now the me just love,i mean i just cant get out of it,of being alone.totally alone.not seeing any human being in days.And that makes me feel really relaxed and calm.And my mind can function clearly,as i involve more with people then i start losing control.and i would totally regret it at the end,so just dont involve with other people is my approach,well as i can make money online then it would be awsome to totally switch off to the rest of the world.So nice so peaceful,well i guess cos thats becos my childhood had been so fuckin busy that fucked it up,well lived in one the most busiest city in the world,work and noisy is just like attackin ,torturing u every single second,thats y even goin nearly a pub fucks my head up,cos i really just dont want that damn sound,well wouldnt mind talkin within a few people but anywhere busy fuckin kills me.

     Well i guess i just fuckin enjoy the sound of silence.

Lookin forward

               Dont know y there is a big difference,really dont know y,maybe its fate,maybe its my destiny.I am just different,am already stepping into a state of letting go,well not quite there but to be detach to the world where normal people live within.The only person i know is in a state like this is Ivan.The ability of not being contrained or linked to others is amazing,now i am turning like that.Where life becomes a path,so quiet,so much to learn but not on info or knowledge but instead is wisdom and the ability that u handle toughness and challenges.Its hard,but now i finally finding it quite fun.Well i no longer am the person that i was now.I used to be tangled in emotions trapped,stride for useless things.Now learning to let go,adapt,become water,facing problems with no feelings but to get it done.I know that i can no longer be affect by emotions cos that i just cant,with in this state.Performance  of great work comes first,even any emotions comes in,still there is only one way to deal with it,analysis it,learn the good,discard the bad.I feel like i had grown 15 years in a few months time.I no longer am young,i feel like i am about 40.

             Becos of detachin from all human-being,it give me space to learning to think to reflect.Now i can see that majority of people live in a life which is constrained by desire,and emotion.Only thinkin about life itself and lookin at in a whole can really see the true about life itself.

         Was just reflecting back,and realise its already been 11years seen 97.my life had already been maybe the quarter mark.Weird,it really is time to start running in my path of life,there is not really time to waste.Well,life its really odd but now i am a person that i never even think i would be,calm,quite,there is still a tone of worry inside but now am feelin that i really am detached.Relax in the mind is what i am feelin i think.I feel like i am floating in the middle of the sea on my own.

      Lookin forward to the next quarter of life,which is filled with the outcome of hard work.

shapeless,formless,i becomes everything

     HAHAHAHHAHAHA my little brain is being bombard by the greatest of wisdom,just a tiny glimpse overload my head,amazing.Left me wordless.

      Learning to becomes water,when i work i becomes waterfall,when i face problem,i penetrate it,when i am forced to the corner,i becomes liquid goes round bends,my mind becomes no form as my form.Have to learn to have the  allowence in my mind as the vast sea,i finally steppin into a state of development of tasting the chinese wisdom.The vastness of knowledge cant be imagined.

       Only the way of no tension and relax and let go of everything can help you to gain everything.

  Formless,when shadow follow shapes,when the form of you disappeared and you merge and become everything,turn into the part of the surrounding.

    When you want the hardest punch,u have to be totally relaxed,store the energy like a bow,punch like an arrow,move like a whip.When the mind of nothingless becomes everything,a state of all contained but same time empty.

   Learning,learning to be a tank of water

Son of the dragon

     The culture of chinese and western can never merge,western culture is based on self-centered,chinese is based on family and sacrifice.

    Western people based their learning on what they like,what they want to do,their dream.Chinese people are born and they start learning when they are 3 and are program to learn becos its their responsiblity.If u dont respect ur parent,u will be hit by lightening.Its the duty that u r born with to look after ur parents,cos they sacrifice so much to look after u,so u just leave them their when they are old and in need!!!!Only western culture would has the concept of not lookin after parents,even Raven would.

     Well there is a huge gap between the 2 cultures,thats why there are conflicts,there are war,the only thing that we can do is to accept others but still believe in what we do.I am stubborn,and i will never change myself,no matter what happen.I will work all the best of myself,look after my family give them a good life and sacrifice the rest of me to save people in need.

     In order to do this there will be challenge and it will be hard.Still no compromise,i am not gonna lower my standard becos something has change or it seems hard.Challenge then hurdle over it.Tripped over,bleeding??Then stand back up and try again.Pain??Fuck it.What a u??A baby.Grown up chinese people had to learn to take responsiblity,its never just live a life like a western person.Even been educated in different countries,still never forget the core of you,who you really are.A decedent of the dragon.

Light

        The weather is absolute shit outside,fuckin awful,grey,raining,cold but so what,i will use my heart,my boiling blood to shine on it,to lighten it and to cloud the shit away and open a path.

       I have to know that i am takin the pain and misery of those millions starving children,i am using it as a driving force,putting it on my shoulders.One day i will success and i will save them.I really am just waiting,using hard work to make that day closer.

     Perfection or not already not considered within,becos the idea is just unbreakable.Rain or grey sky already doesnt matter as the sky in my heart is shininh like fuckin crazy,boiling as lava.

      May all the people that read this blog,believe in ur dream,ur goal.Fight until ur last bit of blood and breathe is used up.Never give in,no compromise!!

The need to retain focus

         Maybe i look like that i really want to make a lot of money,but i see it as a tool.Life becomes pointless,and worthless without goals.My goal is to save people,reduce pain on Earth,to do all i can to help.And in my existing power and knowledge,making money with stocks is all the best that i can do to save people.And this is why i am doin all i can to make money in the stocks market.Its gonna be hard,when i can make a lot of money and still resist the temptation from money and not be poisoned by it.

       But at this moment i am workin towards my goal,i am half asleep,my eyes are blurry,i lost the sense of time,tiredness is pullin me down,its killing me but i am just doin press up in totally blurriness,workin,fighting,lookin at stocks and learn about it,when i could just go to sleep and relax,but i can give up any chance which can make me save people.When i make money,all the tiredness pays off then give it away then will make the point of my life.My goal.

      Sometimes i am so tired and cold in the morning that i feel sick,6am in the morning,so what!!!!!!!Throw it up,get it done then start the work,those are just excuses,the difficult which can be done now,only the impossible might take a little longer.

      I need to make myself more crazy,use the craziness in me to support my goal,stubborn and never give up.

       Its the only path for now,lets walk the best on it,then improve on the way to the goal.Its not just to reach the goal,its to make the best out of the path walkin there as well!!Perfection must be obtained!!!My focus is dispersing,emotions kills,may i have the power to focus like a beam again,concentrated and powerful!!!

insane beam,what?? Focused

       HAHAHA   I really am crazy,i no longer am the person that i once was,the me before was scared of things,lazy,no focus on goal.Now i work so hard that i fall asleep when my eyes are open,so what tired then eat,rest and start again,training is not just that.The meaning of training is so tiredness,everything is hard,nothing is goin ur way,give up?No,u still do ur best,and thats training.When things goes ur way,thats not training.

     Tiredness is brining me down,loneliness is suffocating me,life becomes pointless,reality becomes dreams,life becomes blurry.The point to work is fading away but i still force everything that i have to focus,work until i can go on anymore and that is training.

     No hard work,no gain and this is the truth to everything.U can look at it as horrible,harsh,evil but u can also look at training is awsome,i will be better and focus just on the success and ignore the shit about it.Tired the 100% focus on the rest,eating then eat like u never eat before.Think 6am-5pm of work is crazily tired then,do press up do triceps dips,force ur body to go a little further each time,then it all adds up.So after a few years,ur brain will be like stainless steel and ur body will be like titanium.

      There is no perfection in you cos u r already beyond that,by then u r success itself.

    Light beam,i am focused.steppin to prefection the first stage.already fuckin hard but training i am training,Sleep eat,train,sleep eat train,lost but will be perfect and will be beyond.

     And when that is obtained,then the most powerful out of all,sacrifice.Thats my point of life.

     Not to believe it,but just to do it.

Waiting

      The sign or even the representation of bravery or even wisdom,is that when u look at challenge or anything that evoke bad memories,U dont feel weird,try to look away,u stare at it,find out y u r lookin away and conquer it.

       I am stepping forward slowly,growin,a little closer to my goal.The ability to not care is so important,why care!!So u really gonna give up cos that someone laugh at u,u really walkin away cos that u scare,u will miss so many chance.And the glorious thing about this is,even u can do that and become amazing,u still discard emotions and personal desire,eliminate temptation and help the people in need.Becos of the goal,it gives me power,a driving force to oversee bad memories or fear,hurdle over challenge.

       Dont have to think about what other people think,just focus on what u,urself think!!

     Dont forget ur responsibilties,every single person on Earth is different,and i will have to work hard,grow learn,give the best,and sacrifice.It's gonna be different to others,but i aint gonna to become one of them but i will stand on my own until the day arrive!!

One day,just one day

     As time goes on,it just keeps getting hard to fight myself to control,not letting me to turn into the majority.The temptation,the animal part of me is trying to breach out,and i am holdin on,holdin on but i am startin to lose control.I really cant turn into the old me,if i turn back now,i will just go around in circle for ever.And i will never be able to live the life that i want.

      Guess i just have to forget everybit of memory tht i have and what i learnt from it,stays with me and never load the old data again.

      Got to keep stepping forward,no emotion,no temptation,no laziness, Just hard work!One day,one day it will pay off!!

Light had dimmed in her life,just one sentence would relighted it but......so sad

      Crazy world isnt it,another hard workin,good moral,no party,no alcohol,just person striving,had suicide.She is only 26,only even of her live that she has lived.This is life,only the fittest survive.Either u get thru all the pain,all the hardship and success,or u become a pile of shit,living with no purpose,like animals,eat shit fuck die.

      Her life is not as bad as other people,she has hearing problem,but still strived her best,comes first in school,so people wont look down on her,went to usa with scholarship then becomes a teacher.But yet she still under attack from the discrimination from herself and others,she chose to end her life.

      Now i thought about it thoroughly i think its becos is that she discriminate against herself,when she doesnt care,no matter what other says wouldnt matter.

   But still she would have to go thru all the pain,hope she will feel relief now.

     When she was at her lowerest point,if there was someone,just to say something encouraging,just something nice,it might change her life.Simply like,hang on,there is always people will support u,i do have a glimpse of how she feel,no one can ever understand her without being in her situation.I was the same,so alone,u just feels that everything has departed from u,she chose to end it,i chose to live and fight,i can not say i wont give up but i can only say as far as i can see,i will stay and fight until i cant go on anymore.

      May she has the ability to regain courage to fight against all possibilties in life,next life even,all the challenges all the changes.

      When courage and determination ran out then,the only thing,the only thing is to free ur eyes,then life itself becomes so small,so.... dont have to care about those little thing.

      May wisdom be the light to guide all the people in need,in a few years time,not long,i would be one of the light tower to try to help,to serve my responsiblity,to try to help,try to guide all the people in need.

The sound of my path

       Beep beep beep beep,yer i havnt typed aything wrong,i meant to type beep,beep,beep,beep.

  Or even better would be have pauses between a set of 4 beats. And this is the sound of my alarm clock.

       When this morning,the alarm clock went off,i have the feeling that it was never the same as before.As my mind tell me that sound doesnt just contain the message of waking me up,but it always contain,emotion control,determination,tiredness,the resistance to negative feelings.

     Everyday,my body is so tiredness,just wanna sleep in.But yet i wake up within 2-3 mins after 6 oclock,no matter how i feel,how tired i am,how i want to give up.

       Beep,beep,beep,beep will remain within me for the rest of my life.