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   Oh for fuck sake,i am so confused.Is it that even you know something is gonna fail stil got to try,even a man with no legs he still got to try to run??So fuckin confused,is it that by never giving up even it leads to nowhere,just by trying will create it own purpose of trying???

    Or is it becos future is something that hasnt happened so anything is possible so u got to try until it becomes a fact??

    Is it that even i am fuckin tired,fuckin upset,fuckin lonely and want to give up and be a coward and no one is by my side to support me but still i cant give up and still give the fullest be brave and determined.Is this what i have to do.Is it that even i am not sure what the fuck i am doin,i still have to give my best,even the road ahead is so unclear,i still have to light it up with my will???  I really want to know is it what i have to do,or is it just my responsiblity??Or is it my fate,my destiny??

     I want to know,i want to know.I want to know so many things,i want to know answer of which a question could be asked,i want to know y red is red,y blue is not red,y we dont call tree dfghldsf or aepworjewio even.y computer has to look the way they are,y there are horrible people on Earth.Y there is sadness,loneliness and y sometimes there are joy and love.Y am i askin y,even y am i not sitting there and not askin y.

     I am very tired but do i just have to let out my ability 100%,i am scared of what it will be like.I am scared if it is out of control.Am i just a coward or too lazy or is there anymore reason to explain this.

     Answer where are you??Answer should we meet up tomorrow and u can tell me all about urself.