My boat,The rescuer

      HAHA maybe becos of my stubbornness,this becomes my reason of success,when i was younger people thinks that i am crazy,now somepeople is afraid to talk to me,cos this i am now insane. Its not that i cant function as normal,its becos then i think something is right,i just go mental and get it perfected before i will stop,not matter i am ill,hasnt even for days,throwing up.Nomatter what,when a goal is set,nothing is have priority before it.

      This stubbornness has made me wake up 6am everyday,work until 11pm.It s becos of the stubbornness i can fight against tiredness,desire and pain,misery even loneliness combined with awful words from people after continous of trying and failing,its becos of this ,i will never give up.The feeling of success give me freedom,give me something i want,the breakfree on being controlled,both the body and the mind.Before i wanted to remove my sexual organ,cos it causes distraction but now,there is no need cos when every bit of energy is put into controlling myself to focus and work then it seems like,it had fallen off already.

      If there was no pain at first,there wont be a kick start,i do think everything is set but ur choice and how well u use ur chance makes the different,there wont be an end to sadness nor happiness,when u think its the end,hah its only the beginning .

       Now,i will be back on my boat,driven by the force of determination,dedication,sailing thru the sea of pain,challenge and sadness,yes there will be waves but dedication breaks thru them.And yes i do scared that the boat will break,and i will sink and drown,and yes i do afraid that i will be lost,but determination light up my path.I will sail thru all pain to save the people from the other side,save them from eternal misery,and i will keep goin forth and back,until the task is done or until i die.Will never give up,cos this is what i am born for.

 Sacrifice prevail!!

 Awsome!!!