it's too late t'apologize

Just suddenly feels like writing to express my inner desire which is contained by fear,it feels like i am in a house inside a forest,dark,very dark,i can barely see the dark green leaves(its all the picture i can see in my eyes but are all my imagination) tall,tall trees.Am just sitting there,well holding my knees,shivering,afraid,worried.But from what???I dont even know.As i gets more afraid,i try to exclude myself more but i gets more afraid from loneliness.i am sitting at the bottom on a tall tree.U might think the tress represent protection but it doesnt,it's just a stranger passing by,maybe even just standing there. i still there stuck, afraid.And i just screamed loudest as i can,feels like my voice cord is cracking into dry salt blocks,like a sand belt vibrating.FUCK.and i just stood up and run,pumps with adrenaline,my hearts is pumping so fast.It went blank,all white,sharp,then i just disappeared.Thats what i am feeling now inside my heart,not in my brain.